Pregnancy Week 15

I’ve been feeling so much better. I’m here on holiday with the in-laws and haven’t had any severe pregnancy/ME symptoms for a week which feels like a miracle. The nausea is MUCH better – mostly in the evenings now. The tiredness is MUCH better. It’s mostly in after dinner and in the mornings but not to the same catastrophic proportions. And although I keep feeling on the verge of a relapse, symptoms seem to pass rather than building up into the usual crash.

I’m also so much more relaxed than I usually am when on holiday here. Instead of feeling agitated about family dynamics and the loss of personal space I’m just happy surrendering all control over my life to the Grand Scheme of babymaking for which my body and person are just a vessel. So it doesn’t matter if my holiday time is besieged by others. I’m still doing my thing, just lying here on a deckchair, my belly swelling by the day.

Today I have a blissful morning by myself with a warm breeze and turquoise sea to behold. My prospects seem completely turned around compared to a week ago.

7TH September 2004